My world is cracking open and expanding once again.
I've felt this way before. At work. When Mia and Sophie were each born. It's the sensation of everything shifting and pulling away in to new nooks and crannys to make room for something new.
It's usually positive, challenging, exciting.
At work, I thought I knew what "busy" was for me, and I set my boundaries around those limits. It wasn't until I started experiencing some dramatic role changes that my world completely reorganized and my definition of "busy" changed drastically. It wasn't bad. It was exciting, and it upped my game at work in extraordinary ways. It forced me to grow and expand.
In the midst of that work life, Zoe was born. My life unzipped and made room for all the changes a baby brings. There were choices and I stopped traveling as much, but mostly I felt as if my life expanded, and I had more room. Part of the time and demand shifts that occurred then included the death of our cat Franklin. Expand. Contract. Like taking a deep breath.
Then, when Mia was born and Sophie after that, I had the same feeling of my universe opening up to make more room. It was like my arms and legs just got longer so I could hug three kids at once and have them all sit in my lap at story time. And, our dog Chloe died during that time. Expand. Contract.
This week, when we realized that Aimee (Ruth's daughter) was going to need emergency surgery, I had that feeling again. As Scott and I juggled work and our three kids, we took turns making sure someone was always with Ruth and Aimee, cooking meals, etc. They too are part of our family.
When I was talking to someone about it, they remarked that it all sounded very stressful. But, it's not. It's really not at all. Our lives just expanded. They will contract again when Aimee is released from the hospital, hopefully today.
And so it goes on and on. We're very, very lucky.